so i have had all kinds of reasons for my absence of writing over the few weeks or so.
More time with the kids. Luke only goes to daycare on the days after i work (so i can sleep) so it is anywhere from 1-3 days/week, depending on if it is a weekend and J. will be home to watch the kids or not. I do not feel like he was really happy at the daycare. I don't think he was getting everything he needed. (i was in childcare long ago and i can be picky).
Also, Brady is home for the summer and we think he and his brother need to be together. They are 5 years apart and anything we can do to foster that relationship that brothers have, we will do it.
We have hired a babysitter to watch them on the days i sleep. She is our old neighboor, she is in high school and they love her. It also saves us some dough.
I have questioned our decision a bit. A family member has expressed her concern, that Brady should be at camp with kids his age. Maybe...BUT he can have playdates, and i think that growing the relationship with his brother outweighs the few times he misses his buddies (none of his close friends are going to camp) AND last year he had a heatstroke at camp. Overall, i think it has been a good transition but the summer is young so we shall see....
There has been some family drama (for lack of a better term) and i have felt a bit pulled in different directions and a lot has been on my mind regarding "THE DRAMA". I just haven't felt like writing.
I have been questioning WHY i am writing.
I follow lots of other blogs and it just seems like a world that is still so unknown to me.
Sponsors, giveaways,buttons, linking up, followers, etc, etc.
I am basically writing because i want to document what is happening in our lives but to be honest after reading a lot of other blogs and seeing the impact it can make on other women, other mamas....
I wouldn't mind if i what i had to say, was helpful or inspiring to someone else.
Maybe that is selfish?
I also don't want it to take away from my family time AND i can see how it can easliy do that.
SO i have been struggling with really what i want out of it.
I have been overly tired from work, not eating as healthy as i was and so ALL of that cheese, root beer floats, chips, BBQ, fresh muddled drinks, pizza and other yummies are making me sluggish.
I think the treadmill and i need to get reacquainted..blah!
Until next time....